First off, I’d like to start off this blog post by saying I am doing better than I was last week. This past week has still been difficult, but it has improved. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
I would appreciate continued prayers as I slowly deal with the root of my troubled heart I mentioned last week. Truthfully, it will take a handful of counseling sessions and deep prayer with God to deal with it all.
Nevertheless, like I said, I come to you this week a little better. I am still struggling with different areas of my life.
Honestly, I started this week truly wondering if I was going to find the time to write a blog post. This week of school is probably one of the busiest, if not the busiest, I’ve ever had. Usually, in my eight-week courses, week 4—the halfway point—is the busiest. Yet, in this course, it is week 3, which is where you find me.
I started this week sinking into a pile of quicksand built by the foundation of gobs of reading material. However, I asked the people closest to me to pray for me this week. Usually, I don’t ask others to pray for me—at least not earnestly. But, this time around, I did.
Walking into this week, I knew the only person who would get me through was God. Therefore, I was not ashamed or hesitant to have a group of believers covering me in prayers. I asked for them to pray for the root of my troubled heart and that I would be able to get through a hectic school week.
Praise Jesus! He answered my prayers. I felt the answer to prayer probably more so than I have ever felt before. Even more so than being at peace with a big life decision. As I’ve shared before, in my personal walk and relationship with God, more often than not, He proves His faithfulness—in both answered and unanswered prayers—in the smallest of ways and moments.
He proves His majesty and supreme control of the entire universe in the details and in the climatic event.
He proves His majesty and supreme control of the entire universe with a grain of sand and a tidal wave.
Therefore, I know it was an answer to prayers that allowed me to have the strength to read one of my five chapters on Monday evening. And that was after the busiest day of my work week! I knew it was God who gave me the wisdom to know what notes to take.
I knew it was God who gave me the energy to continue to read yesterday even though I did not feel well. Most importantly, it was God who gave me peace as I answered two discussion prompts that I thought would be extremely time-consuming and difficult.
God was, is, and always will be with me. He was with me to complete the first batch of assignments due this week. He will continue to be with me in my second batch of assignments, even amid a busy weekend ahead.
I say it again: God was, is, and always will be with me…and you!
Also, I think He is using the busiest school week to remind me a lesson I learned nearly two years ago, faithful and true: God will carry me through. He will carry me through my school load. And He will carry me through the troubles of my heart. In the process, He will cast out the fears and doubts of my heart.
This, I know: I may not be a perfect follower of Jesus, but I do have a perfect, unfailing God.
So, I remind you and myself: Prayer works. Sincere, earnest prayer works. And it is because of this truth I do, indeed, write with joy and passion this week.
Thank you, dear friends. Thank you for walking this journey with me.